revelation

Goed evening.

I had a good revelation tonight.

Reading through a magazine of http://www.velt.be I misread “eerlijk voedsel ” (honest food) as “heerlijk voedsel” (delicious food).  That got my head spinning.

food … >  consciousness of what we eat. That made me realize what I find most important in my life. being in my 46 year.

Consciousness.

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Allergies

Allergie Fire

fenix immune

libre liberé liberty

Messiahs are phoenixes, freed from their allergies.

Righteousness Possessiveness Fear Poison Fire Cold Ego Morality Hungers Matter Thriving Living

St Job : A mad man ? Or one who wishes to free himself.

Do not step in a Phoenixes if you do wish to become enraged.

Amen

embarrassment

Today I felt embarrassed toward a woman. When I looked for why. I felt I was embarrassed because I love her.

I was at a table filled with people preparing a community meal. at first after my discovery I was quiet, surprised.

I said

“I have a problem”. I was asked why.

“I find myself embarrassed toward you”.

“why ?”

At first I was quiet. Then I looked towards the source again.

“because I love you” : even writing this last sentence causes a little anguish.

This is not the first time I did such a thing.

After words I feel better. Relieved.

Dimensions and distinction original intended

The previous message: https://steptoharmony.wordpress.com/2017/09/30/distinction-and-dimensions/

Was started Late at night after discovery.

The discovery

I was lying in bed meditating, Dealing meditatively with stress in the top of my head due to painful trigeminal nerve.

Fig 4 - Cutaneous innervation to the head and neck.

Dimension bit:  My habit – Do I wear that ? Does it wear out ? – is to be present there with my consciousness. Being careful not to add to the stress . This time I tried , found something different. Namely to send instruction to the spot. The instruction to relax. It worked.

Before I only worked with consciousness. I discovered a new tool, a new dimension.

That was then.

new discovery

I discovered I had to submerge and go to root of the problem.

The root IS more painful.

That is located high op in my nose.

Earlier today I felt it .

Its raw.

I

 

Distincting : body and brain

I ones blamed a book for my mental, state of being but directly noticing that that wrong. The book only presents me whit something. So I will endeavor to keep the eye on fact and impression also on me versus others.

Meditating ones again lying on my bed. The top at the back of my mouth, slightly above my molars was hurting. The top of my head (scalp area) is always hurting.

I put my consciousness there. The pain lessened in my mouth. I noticed that the left side seemed connected to the right side of my brain and similar for the right side of my mouth. It gave the impression of a X. The I became curious.

I changed my focus to lower body and it felt differently located. I only held that briefly. Would the experience be different if held it longer ? Probably.

But that’s for another time.

Write to you later.

Guy

Noticing difference with regards to thinking

A friend remark about my previous post that she was not sure what I meant when I wrote about private thought (pondering) and public thought

Are you talking about two layers of thinking about the same thing, when you say public or private thinking? Or about how you think about something when there is yes or no an outside influence? Or is one more on an emotional, one on an intellectual approach? There are so many angles from which I could read this, so might be better to ask…

Rereading th particular post. It indeed lacks clarity.

So now I try to be clearer about it.

I try to be clear. I describe what is happening and what appears to be happening.  Wat Intended to report about I didn’t. but I’m going to in a other post.

 

 

With what I called private thought I meant pondering Thinking in yourself about something.  It is different than talking in yourself. It feels different to me.

  • feels more or less central located in the top of the brain
  • it feels “held in”. remember I am talking about pondering, thinking in myself.

What I called public, expressive thinking is more like talking to your self.

  • feel located below the pondering location and more linguistic
  • does not feel held in.

surprise also seems different.  With that It feels like the area around the eyes is

  • When surprise we raise our eyes.
  • surprise feels like located ,up front, at the eyes

I have to be careful to accurate in what I feel