I chose distinction as title for various meanings.
- distinction : telling one from another.
Tonight 29-sept I managed that.
instead of putting,falling,finding the thruth place for things.
- Achieving distinction
How to write this ?
I’m at home now. It’s late at night. Past midnight. Twilight Time.
How far does one get with something that does not make sens ?
Or for which one has a erroneous sens. Which may be called superstition, or assumption.
(to stitch above, a top > superstition. )
Not far or in the wrong way.
Unfortunately that is where we start from. And most stay there. Even educated ones.
The distinction I made tonight. (Phil Collins :tonight)
It’s like distincting the left hand from the right hand.
Learning that the hand I am holding is wrong. Barking up the wrong tree.
In the past I learned that as I was silencing myself meditatively. I was really blocked, closed. Naturally I dropped that.
Or when I became aware of my current frame of though I slipped, flipped to the opposite or wider frame.
Or I hear or read something that give me a lift, Hey that’s it.
That describes basically my process of progress.
I was some year’s ago In a group of psychiatric patients talking about how their doing, There was one man in that group when he spoke It was like my head was submersed in lead. I struggled to lighten it. I could not. It was when the next person spoke that my head was lightened, He was cheerful, the previous I later learned was a trouble man, as trauma. He breath of fresh air that gave. Today I met another person from that group again.
Time for some analysis. What was going on ? Why was my head in a clamp when 1 man spoke, but lightened when another spoke
What influenced me ? Think about it and let us know Your perception.
As I sat to write this I noticed. some things with regard to thinking and where it felt that they occurred. There seemed to be a distinction in location.
There seemed to be a “private” thought, In hindsight it is what called pondering,wondering, It seemed located high up and in the center of my brain. Apart from that, Distantiated. There seemed to be “public, expressive” thinking. Which seemed to be located underneath and more to the front.
After that I had a surprise which thought-wise seemed to occur ,brain-wise, before the center and high.
thinking on different levels
dryly put in a list. which I wrote first, but is put behind the “wet” story form.
I do not want to put of any readers.
“public” “private”; “linguistic” , “others”
- -“public” “expressive thinking”
That feels like its located in a different part in the brain than the “private” thinking. Namely beneath and before. Like a belly beneath a chest. Or like a bowl underneath the private part.
- private thinking seems now a misnomer. maybe to some degree.
Based on a new experience just now.
“surprised” thinking felt like it was before “private” and high.
- What I called private thinking seems therefore to be better called
source, origin, well. It is known as pondering.
oops : writing,conceptualizing this is not a race.
I got to lay of the whip (the h in whip makes sense (( think about it)). No Yai Yai Yai. Spurring on mi horse.