Today I felt embarrassed toward a woman. When I looked for why. I felt I was embarrassed because I love her.
I was at a table filled with people preparing a community meal. at first after my discovery I was quiet, surprised.
“I have a problem”. I was asked why.
“I find myself embarrassed toward you”.
At first I was quiet. Then I looked towards the source again.
“because I love you” : even writing this last sentence causes a little anguish.
This is not the first time I did such a thing.
After words I feel better. Relieved.