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Today I read this post. Yesterday evening I went to bar here in Antwerp. I was to late for the live music. The night was not a loss. I stayed until 2 or 3 in the morning talking to some people. Maybe connecting with another through the energy, consciousness and hearing a bit of her thoughts concerning me.

I had a dialogue with the man next to me about people. It was difficult to put in to words what I wanted to say. I started talking about it using economy, but that puts up the right or wrong of the economy. That was not what I wanted to talk about.
No. What I wanted to talk about is not exclusive to the economy.
We are al in roles. a treadmill. The Stanford University prison experiment shows that. Other psychological experiments also show it.  Every role puts blinders on. The blinders makes us zombies. Blind to what we do. Only seeing the seeming need that needs to get done. Our fellow humans fall by the wayside. Ourselfs falls by the wayside.

As a child we question not our parents over what they give us. We question not our teachers. Our parents do not question what they give us. Growing up we are told , taught, disciplined how to life. Step outside that how and they retaliate. Besides that we also have desires and talents.Which we inherit. We are brought up in a world where all those that are not family have to pay. A friend may get free access or discount.
Why ?
It is written in the post. Hierarchy of openness. ( read it)
Why is that ?

The problem is deeper than humans. Deeper than mammals. Maybe deeper than plants.
All animals have that hierarchy of openness. What I wanted to talk about was not even exclusive to humans.

solutions: escape,hide,shield or fight,struggle or solve. Only the full truth solves it ones and for all.
Humans we are. One can only start from where one is. Solving the problems of our society ones and for all is to solve ourselfs.

Conflict over buying a pair of shoes and pants

Yesterday. 29 december 2016

I am now trying to remember yesterday, and not just write what comes to mind.

I was going to buy 1 pair of shoes and a pair of pants. I got a mental conflict over it. which caused me to go back home and lay down. For I have very little space at the top of my head for emotional stress. Due to my past. It gave me physical pain at the top of my head, and making it hot.

I eventually bought them and a pair of pair of pants. Expensive too. I was going to a street where I have not shopped before for either. So I wondered where in that street I would buy them. I do not know why but I consulted my instinct. And I indeed for a store there.. Ow I think I just realized why I consulted my instinct. A few days before I was with a good friend. He has a set of tarot cards. He layed them out on the table in random order and asked me to pick a card. First I had a thought to pick a card in the middle. I didn’t. Because it didn’t come from instinct but from a logic that picking the card in the middle is a good choice .


If you want the card that is right. You have to pick on instinct not on a logic.

Which I did. I felt an urge to pick a card that was not in the middle. It was the devil, from the book of Thot tarot card deck.