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Mind is an illusionist.

Mind is an excuse machine

I feel fear when I want to write this.

Maybe this is my last blog message.

My mind is  blocked to form a coherent post

The reasonable mind comes up with excuses to cover for fear. It’s a flight response.

Plato presented that we do not see things as they really are. That we are in a cave and The world is outside that cave.. We see projection, and there is more.

There are two ways to discover. Analytical and Empirical (?What’s the connection with empire ?) Empirical is meditational .

– Besides this message, I feel that when I try to write this message that my mind accesses my linguistic frame of reference to write what I want to write. That accessing is a spirit, an intent . The fact that I can feel that show my current sensitivity in that regard. Which comes from my meditation –

Present yet not

I was meditating this morning in m bed and I felt I was imagining illusions about things.  I did not want that. I felt something related to seeing things as they are coming from the back of my head. that happened a few times.

I was riding on my bicycle, It’s dark outside. I was present – In that I was seeing traffic and traffic light -. And I was definitely present in that I noticed that what I was seeing was presented, projected to me. I felt that spirit, intent. And as happened before when I notice things – like a frame of reference instance – My focus shifts to seeing as it is. Which made me feel more present, sharper, brighter.

 

Other feelings

It’s so easy to be wrong, confused, misguided. With potentially dire consequences.

I noticed I mislabelled. I was about to label, name focus as mind. I but I was not happy about that. I examined it by putting my on mind. I noticed I that put me in rational thinking mode. After that I realized It was really focus that was the right word.

When I put my focus on spiritual travelling – a bit like a vision quest – I feel confident, calm.

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Block vision

I had a vision.

I lived in Antwerp. Trying to remember when is difficult. At first I get nothing except for a sensation of activity. I wait and after a few second a thought appears that it is not going work. I continue waiting and fear and short of  breath sensation in the brain appears.

The block vision
I was in space and a meteor came toward me, or I came towards it .
It was a bit high. I tried to push it away. I tried that several times.
Each time I failed. Then the vision changed to me flying over it.
I saw a rough surface. faces appeared and disappeared in the rock face, one after the other.
Some faces where easy to spot others where behind a feature of the block.

The vision changed to a city in space through which I flew. That did not last long.
After which the vision ended.

I am curious what you make of this vision.

3 hours and 30 minutes of yoga

I first did yoga. Not elaborate . Lying on my back for some time. Then bending  my knees  again for some time. Still on my back with bent knees putting the knees together and the feet apart for some time. OOps sloppy reporting. No mentioning of anything else doing during those positions. Hoo. I can put that in after the list of positions. en de the positions with the knees spread wide and the feet not.

A bit of depth know. Maybe I should let you find out. After all reading is no substitute for doing. But if I write maybe you will be inspired to do it. Seems like I long shot. Plenty of people bye a book with glorious pictures of nature pictures or art pictures but do not go and visit the photographed sites. How many people go and see the Yellow stone park thousands. Park rangers are worried. Publishing seems to work.

Lying there on my back, on a mat. I let me get some peace there then. Where was my Consciousness then ?  I do not really remember now. It must have been with me. I was not dead

My tradition is to put the focus of my awareness on me. Utterly shellfish me. More particular on my body, or a part of my body. Yes I admit I am preoccupied with my body.

All fine and dandy, but what comes out of putting my attention in me. I read that the father of  Marconi was doing something useless. playing around with radio waves. His mother covered for her son. One day He showed his father usefulness, gaining support from his father after all.

This post is not about him. Back on topic.

When I put my conscious on me I get results. What depends on the intention that goes with it. If I stay calm and put my consciousness on a stressed spot.  That spot becomes calm. When I have a cramp, like in my foot or my calves. My first – automatic – response is what everybody experiences, but I regain my calm . and put my consciousness on the spot (there is something missing here, but I am not sure what ). The cramp goes away gradually. I also use the intention of opening at the spot. T can then access it but something of the stress may spread.  Giving stress to other areas.

Backing up further on to the original topic. I started  with yoga at home. after that I ran for 3  hours and 30 minutes. Of which the first 2 hours where non-stop. When I run I put my consciousness on my body and on my surroundings.

Yoga for more than 3 hours.

It improves my performance.

I have stress at the top of my head. When I open that on the run. It negatively affects the run. It’s like opening the sewers in my head.  I manage not to make it worse, not to add to it. The fallout gives ma bit of stiff shoulders.  Like I wrote before, putting my consciousness on it with being calm and relaxed myself the spot unstiffens to some degree.

Calm and relaxed is not the same. An ice cube is calm but not relaxed. It took me a while the realize the difference. Before that I gave only calm. It did not make things worse but also did not improve. I am learning.

It is not my first and of course not my last run.

ps: 3h30 is about 35 KM for me, currently