My state of mind per situation

Héllo.

It is 20h20m this monday, 15 april if 2024 (catholic calendar)

I just got home from a small shopping trip. Noticed my state of mind. Different then when I left for my shopping trip. That was when I had just written the previous message

I am being inspired to change my state of mind. But I also notice that the state of mind that I am accustomed to is like a uniform that gradually feels wrong.

Gradually no longer thinking about physics as we are accustomed to. That makes sense to me.

Sometimes dirt – O that great evil thing – feels that it is a natural thing. That it is as it is supposed to be.

We are taught that it is wrong and needs to be cleaned. That the right way of being is to be cleaned. To go to war on it.

But is it really. Is it that by it self ? Or is that created.

Is dirt being a problem, ill making, so by it self ? Or is created ?   A self full filling prophesy ?

My spiritual experience suggest that it is created.  It so far suggests, indicates that our health is a spiritual creation or lack there and their of.

It suggests that I, we am crossroad past and present and of internal and external. That we are spiritual influenced to be not aware of the spiritual nature of ourself and world.

Crossroads upon crossroad.

What is the truth in it and how to deal with.

Goal : increase in wholesomeness and harmonic openess.

God is the biggest hippy

possesing holding on
halla posses nothing satan pissede everyrhing.

allah frames nothing satan frames everything.

allah is free satan is non free.

allah is chill zero kelvin satan is not chill

God is the biggest hippy. The devil the biggets straight jacket.

it is 15:00 h 15 april After hours of playing a game on the computer and a bit of sleep I have a state of being that hold a clear state of mind.
Not just a clear state of mind but a open one.

After waking up, my mind – To wat extent is it MY mind ? it is and it is not. – was fantasing – was it ? -.

But God being a hippy is not the message we get from religion.

Religious folk have a hard time being a hippy.

It must be organized, controled suppressed

My change, a next step : material, spiritual

Hallo it has been a while.

:Intro:

My change started in 2006.

We are now 2024. Sat 13 april.

A change of my place in the world.

From a young man coming from no spiritual background living in Belgium.

To an older maturer young man coming in his place in a spiritual reality.

In between my non spiritual and my spiritual maturity I am now. Like a tree that still got growing to do.

Trouble of various kinds I still face.

Troubles I have had.

Others have reported that they spiritual feel that there is something big going on.

I wonder if it is relevant that in the chinese horoscope this is the year of the dragon. I do not follow such things. But I am learning that there are things that before my change I would not have believed.

: Soul family :

I learned there is soul family. That means a connect beyond dead. When I meet someone that is part of my soul family I feel weakly connected. We klick together. I some years ago saw in a vision the soul family shaped like tree. The closest member is a soul twin. Their are also soul mates. You can be soul connected with someone of another soul family.

Being close by to a soul family member can be tricky. It is possible that at the soul level you merge, become one while still having a separate body and mind. Like being a siamese twin. Learn to live with it. Learn to not have a problem with it.

You maybe married and you meet someone who is soul family. That can be another tricky situation.

: Me :

I am more and more identifying with my soul. It is very important to have a level head. Being with people makes me lose my levelheadedness. But it depends who they are. 

Being for me now depends on the environment and lack of self.

Am I less and less identifying with society ?

I currently live in the city of Antwerpen in Belgium. One of the major cities in Belgium. With an international crowd and tourist. One of the major industrial ports of Europe.

Someone with my background would have studied, gotten a job, a house (mortgage ?). Worked their ass for the boss. A family maybe.

I am glad I am escaping that. I could have lived a happy life like that but I can not longer have a happy life like that.

I can now only have a happy life being in proces of becoming awakened,

: Awakening in various traditions :

Buddhism : a bodhysatva.

Islam : Taskiyah. Part of islamic mysticism (sufy)

Christianity : part of christian mysticism

Judaism : part of judaism mysticism (kabbalah and others)

Shamanism.

Good teachers, good practice, take your time to do it right. Always with a level head.

Succes gives a level head, grace, harmony, peace, connection.

That is the result. Getting there, an adventure. Not for the faint of heart. Catharsis.

There are bad spirits, so be warned.

: material spiritual :

I do not yet have grace, harmony but I do have peace with my oddysee.

Now occasionally I get an inspiration to think of, get a frame of mind that the material is spiritual.

Some time ago while thinking of electrons I got the inspiration to think of them as spiritual. Today I got it similar with an atom, molecule. I forgot which one it is.

The taoists maybe right.

2 o clock AM of 16 of June and my feelings have progressed so that I occasionally can sense that an event is a natural thing. It is hard to describe what I sense in this.

It is certainly not of the five senses. It is like empathy but not with regards to the emotion of others. It has to do with coincidence and cause and effect.

I can feel thus that a coincidence is an occurrence that seemingly bears no relevance and is fit to be disregarded. Maybe even fought. While in reality it is related and should be accepted providing it his wholesome. Tricky is we have an opinion that something is or is not wholesome while in reality it maybe different.

An accident might be wholesome and maybe even purposefull. But we dislike it and fight it. And are not aware how it is related. And we do not like we do not let it be .

Culture shock.

I am just beginning in this so what I wrote is preliminary but I feel it is right to wright.

Taoist seem right.

Let things be. And things will be as they should be.

Wholesome

Let what needs to happen happen.

If there is a bump in the road let it be.

But not everything is as it should be.

Getting dirty is as it should be.

life a healing

life is a weave of healing. At every layer. Not with every strand.

A weave of wholesome strands and non-wholesome strands.

To wholesomeness.

Creating strand that are partially wholesome. Some more than others.

The wholesome ones are there to be guides to become more whole.

Eventually all will be wholesome.

——————– —————– —————–

A long time ago al there was was whole.

No divide.

No polarisation.

No exclusion.

No heaven and hell just heaven.

0 was not yet split in +1 and -1.

It was aligned with all, with nothing in part-icular.

Like chaos.

Or was it aligned with nothing.

So less aligned than chaos ?

Or so ancient texts go.

Modern material science confirm that fundamental particles are created by polarization of energy. Into a particle and a anti-particle.

From 0 into +1 and -1.

———– —————– —————–

I had several visions concerning life and a spiritual conference.

Vision showed that a soul came to the earth before arrived it split in male and female.
I am the male part. We are called soulmate or soultwin. We are part of a soul family.
Everybody is part of a soulfamily. That soulfamily looked like a soultree.

soulfamily is not equal to biological family.

So we have biological family, mother, father, brother, sister and so on and a soulfamily
Soul brother, soul sister, soul mother, soul father and so on all the way to the soul that is called god.

our souls want to reconnect, rejoin.

Soul twins first and most.

For the soul it is coming home.

Brothers and sisters in de bible marrying each other ? Are they biological family or soul family ?

That vision showed me.

Sometime after that I had visions that showed me :

A soul came to the earth and started first life.

Then I saw a soul coming to earth and starting human life.

After that I saw that the soul that started first life had been on earth before
Part of a life that was more advanced than and then current life.

I saw it left earth and went to Nirwana but Existence that is more than earth and Nirwana got it to come back and start life again.

In life spiritual conference I heard this is the fifth time.

It happens on other planets too.

Part of that conference was god, the others parts were from other planets.

In one vision I saw that life is created to heal the University

To bring it back together.

To fix the schism of the Universe

To fix the schism in the existence we call god.

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life cycles :

My spiritual experience indicates their is some truth to various cosmologies.

• In greek mythology : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ages_of_Man
• In hindu mythology : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yuga_Cycle
  (More sophisticated than the greek, or what is left of the greek)
• In chinese mythology : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chinese_mythology
• In ancient Egyptian mythology : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ancient_Egyptian_religion
• In native american mythology : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mythologies_of_the_Indigenous_peoples_of_the_Americas
• …

reality : falls and pools

A waterfall. A water-pole where one end drops down.
It drops down until it hits a barrier and there it pool’s.

A water-pole exists for it is held in a pole shape by its bedding. With out it it would bobble up in to a ball.

Water boils due to circumstances.
Heat ; air pressure ; disturbance;
The air pressure suppresses bubbling.
The disturbance gives dis-balance, disharmony.
It gives R to the water.
R : Curling of the tong.
The water becomes be-r-ed. Barbed in to bubbles.

Fear causes me to be bubbled, shelled.
Fear is pain.
In pain my mouth, my mind freaks out.
Strain is visible on my lips. Strain is in my head.
My muscle tense up.

Barbed self when I am in pain.

In pain because of barbs.

I have a soft beard.
I can not advice any potions for it because there are non.

Like a salmon I need to go back up stream. For I have lost the original drive.

Though going. Against nature made obstacles and man made obstacles.

I am learning that everything is spiritual.
Everything is heart.

How can I do right with a broken heart..
Tell me.
I sure would like to know.

How can I be gentle when enraged ?

Do not put put put me in jail filled with others with a broken heart.
Put me in a sanatorium where I heal
Where I can become whole again.

Where I can de-boil.

Can you you not see ?
O you are blind. Blind of heart. Blind of sight.

Enraged your heart you put me in jail.
Believing to be justified to be enraged.

The frames of our mind , of our heart makes it so.

Our autistified heart.

Our barbed heart.

A barbed heart a barbed life.

O church does your heart have any barbs ?
If that is none it is unknown to me.

If I get mad I have barbs.
If I am barbed I have illusions.
False perceptions falling on me like a waterfall.

I was some time ago walking.
Coming from a small forest I came across house with grey cemented walls.

Enraged with dislike I was.

Quickly I realized. Why I am enraging over grey cemented wall.
I am fouling myself up over a wall.

It is given to me. And not knowing any better I accepted.
I was a child I did not know any better than to listen to grown ups.

I closed my eyes and set myself up to not look in in disgust.
When I open them I saw a warm grey wall. And I had no disgust.

For the moment.

Growing as a child is becoming indoctrinated.
Growing up as an adult is losing that indoctrination.

A river flows. For the water in it settles down to lower floor on one side over the other.

It follows the floor.

Nothing exists without a floor.

On the other sides the floor faces that side.

Reality its floors faces many sides.

6 AM now.

Morning. the sun is shining. at the horizon.

More stress in my head.

That is my floor now.
A freaked out top of my head.

Less flow in my head now.